Monday, October 31, 2005
Sophie (dog) Sophie is a 7 year old border collie. She has a little bit of chow in her and you can tell by her bark and the black spots on her tongue. She is one of the most loyal dogs I have ever had. All around, a great dog.
Sophie (cat) Because we have a blended family we both have an animal named Sophie. In the beginning, they were both very confused, as was the vet, but we are all used to it now. Now, Sophie cat is one of the most unique animals I have ever met. When she is mad, she will hold a grudge. Sometimes she forgives you and sometimes she doesn't. It's amazing. She is 22lbs. Her nickname is Burrbear and is called that often, as not to confuse the dog. Sometimes I slip and call her fatass, but not often because it really pisses Laura off.
Bonk (cat) Bonk is our oldest critter. I guess she is around 16 or 17, but not completly sure. She was one of my brothers girlfriends cats. Somehow she ended up at my parents and when I moved out I took her with me. When we were attempting to train the dog to sit and stay, Bonk decided that she liked the name "stay" instead of Bonk. She now will only come to you when you say, "Stay". Go figure.
Astro (cat) Astro is a real sweetheart. He is also a big cat, but not real tough. Since Sophie cat has moved in, he has decided he is in love with her. She on the other hand, wants nothing to do with him and tells him every chance she gets. His nickname is "asshole" because of the way his face is shaped and because whenever he gets spooked he farts.
Brady (cat) For those of you that have been reading my blog for a while, he is also known as the "orange bastard" Brady is an orange tabby. He is our homeosexual cat. He wears a collar with a bell because he loves to run out the door when it's opened. The bell just makes him seem so much more gay. He is very sweet and loves to sleep with us and on our pillows.
Ben (cat) Ben is our baby. His Mom was a stray in our neighborhood. I caught him about 4 years ago. He tends to be very shy and sometimes ferel. So, we call him "Ferel Faucett". He thinks his name is "baby". I always called him the baby when I would talk to him and it has stuck with him. A true lover. Loves to cuddle under the covers.
So, those are our pets. Oh, and we have 5 fish. Well, on Saturday night Laura and I were sleeping and all of a sudden Ben was at the end of the bed chasing his tale. This went on for about 15 minutes. At first I couldn't figure out what he was doing. And I was too tired to figure out.
About 2 hours later, Brady was in the same spot chasing the covers. The only thing we could hear was that damn bell.
The only thing we can figure out is, someone in our house put catnip on the end of the bed. It's amazing how they will find the container of cat nip no matter where we put it. So, it's safe to say, our cats were high as a kite on Saturday night.
Friday, October 28, 2005
So, I wake up early Saturday morning and drive down to the Jiffy Lube. I know I was up early because I was their first customer. They instructed me to drive the car into the garage. I thought this was a little strange since I had never been asked to do that before. Usually you pull up and they ask what you need done and then they pull the car in. I pulled the car in, kind of nervous because if you look down in the middle, it is an open space. One move to the right or left and your car could be in there. I get out and they ask what kind of oil I need in my car. HUH? I have never been asked that before. I told them I was not sure. (I thought they were the experts) Then I asked them to check the tire pressure and they asked me, "how much air do you normally put in your tire?" By this time I am getting pretty nervous.
20 minutes later they say the car is done. They ring me up and it's $33. I explain I had called and was told it was $19.99. They tell me it has always been $28 and if I know who I talked to. Whatever. I am done at this point. I pay and walk out to my car. My car was still in the garage and I had to pull it out. Their customer service sucks.
As I am pulling away I notice a nicely dressed man (suit and tie) walking out of the lobby area. I know exactly what he is doing. Here is my conversation with this person.
"Are you handing out Watchtowers?"
"Yes, I am"
"You really need to find something better to do"
"You know the Bible has instructed us to go out in the ministry"
"People know who you are. If they are interested in becoming a JW, they can go to the Kingdom Hall"
"Jesus instructed us to go out and share the good news"
"You know, JW's are a cult and it ruined my family"
"How did it ruin your family?"
"My family will no longer talk to me because of your cult"
"Why are they not talking to you, are you disfellowshipped?"
"Yes, I am"
"Huh, you always have the choice to come back"
I then informed the person I knew what congregation he went to. He was willing to talk to me until he found out I was "disfellowshipped". What a loser.
I know I probably should have not said anything to him, but what the hell, this is America and I am pissed at that entire organziation.
2) The traffic in Branson sucks. Now, we only went to Branson because that is where Chateau on the Lake is. We came into town at one end and the hotel was at the other end. Which meant we had to drive across town in the most horrible, terrible traffic. And most of the drivers are 60+, which makes the driving all the more intersting. It took us 45 minutes to go 3 miles.
3) Driving from Branson to Eureka Springs was about 45 minutes on windy, twisty roads. There are NO bathrooms between Branson and Eureka Springs. After downing 2 hot chocolates before leaving, I was about to burst 1/2 way to Eureka Springs. We were debating pulling over and peeing in a cow pasture. Luckily we got 5 minutes from Eureka Springs and there was a Conoco. YEA..
4) There are true rednecks out there. We saw a truck in Eureka Springs that had some writing on it done with shoe polish. Apparently the couple were on their honeymoon. The two things we saw on the truck were, and I quote, "It's official Cody is not gay." Not too bad, but here's the good one. "To have and to hold" and they had drawn a penis on the passenger side window. We couldn't believe it. Once we saw that truck, we kept running into it. Now that is true class there. NOT
5) The Basin Hotel in Eureka Springs has the best coconut shirmp. We ate there twice just for the shrimp. I am getting hungry just thinking about it.
6) There is absoulty nothing to see on the road between the Arkansas border and Harrisonville, MO. (about 150 miles)
7) NEVER, NEVER, NEVER plan a vacation to the tropics during Hurricane season.
*Pictures to be coming next week of our fun filled trip around Missouri and Arkansas.
Friday, October 21, 2005
Tonight we are taking Sophie (the dog) down to Laura's parents for them to watch her. We have a little surprise for them. We bought the dog a Lady Bug halloween costume. She is soo cute in it. (be sure to check in the next week for pictures of Sophie in her costume) I love that Laura's parents are taking care of her while we are gone. I hate putting her in the kennel. Not only are we saving money, but I will have peace of mind.
I am off of work until next Friday, so most likely I will not be posting. But you never know. Have a great week everyone.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Hurricane Survival Kit
Misc. other bottles of alcohol......................check
Piece of plywood to float your chick and booze on...check
Both Laura and I are really looking forward to this weekend. We are going to Cheatau on the Lake in Branson for a couple nights. This place is amazing. We went and looked at it last August and it's really neat. It's on a huge hillside overlooking Table Rock Lake. Then we are going to Eureka Springs for two nights to stay at the same bed/breakfast we stayed at in March. We are going to go see "Joseph and the Amazing Techicolor Trenchcoat" in Branson and then in Eureka Springs we are going to go see "The Great Passion Play". Plus, we are going to do lots and lots of shopping. Our plan is to get some of our Christmas shopping done and look for those little stocking stuffers. So, all in all, it's going to be a great weekend.
The Kansas City Chiefs were scheduled to play in Miami this Sunday and due to the hurricane, the game has been rescheduled for tomorrow night. You know it's serious when they start messing with the football games. :)
One sad note, many of you may know this, but I did NOT win Poweball last night. I thought with the way our luck was going, we were bound to win it. When they gave the numbers last night, I looked at Laura and said, "I'm sorry, but you will have to go to work tomorrow morning." Maybe next time, right?!?
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
God Speed Glenn.
2) Our trip to Florida is officially off. Due to the hurricane (thanks Wilma), there is a mandatory evacuation in the keys for all visitors. (that's us) We have rebooked for April for one week. So, now a new countdown has started for this trip.
This morning Laura and I were so depressed watching the weather channel. DAMN, DAMN, DAMN...D..A...M...N.... So instead of heading off for the sunny beachs of Florida, we are going to Eureka Springs for a few days. I love Eureka Springs, but it in no way compares to sandy white beaches.
I also got a call last night from my neighbors who moved to WA a month ago because he was dying and wanted to be close to his family. Lyn told me that Glenn is down to his last few hours. Keep her in your prayers because this is a very difficult time for her and their entire family.
Monday, October 17, 2005
3) Island of the Sharks
Ok. So we have Netflix, which is wonderful. But I can not continue to allow Laura to pick out movies. These three movies are just 3 examples of why she should not pick the movies. We watch 1/2 of Blue Demon last weekend and realized it was one of the dumbest movies ever made. EVER. Then this past weekend we watched Undertow. Again, this is one she saw on the previews and said, "put that on our list." The movie was 2 hours long. After the movie was over (yes we watched the whole thing), she looked at me and said, "that was a waste of 2 hours." Last week we struggled to watch Island of the Sharks. Now, it was originally put out on IMAX. I can imagine that it was great on that huge screen, but not on our 32' tv. We didnt' make it through all of it either.
On the other hand, the movies I have picked out have been wonderful.
So from now on, I will make all the choices for the movies. (I'll let you know how that turns out...)
On another subject...We are down to the final countdown (que song) for our trip. This past weekend we got all our shopping done. We are now planning what exactly we are going to do while we are down there. I know for sure Key West in on agenda. Also we found a place where you can swim with stingrays. I swam with stingrays in Cayman and I think Laura would love it as well. The other cool thing is when we went to get our travelers checks, American Express was having a special where if you buy at least $1000 in travelers checks you get a free plane ticket. Just what we needed for our next big vacation. We were talking about Maui next summer, so this makes it better looking every day.
Back to studying.
Friday, October 14, 2005
Hotel Rwanda--this was just an amazing movie. I had wanted to see it since it was in the theatre, but was told by Laura that it was a "social worker" movie. We watched it and it was wonderful. It's amazing what one person can do for the world. I don't know if I could ever has as much courage as they did.
The Hurricane--This movie was put out in 1999 and it stars Denzel Washington. One of the most powerful movies I have ever seen. He is a boxer in the 60's that is falsely inprisoned for a triple murder. A high school student works at proving his innoence. Based on a true story. Long (2 1/2 hours), but well worth it.
Love Actually--A Hugh Grant movie. Another long movie (2+ hours), but very good. There were some parts that I laughed so hard I almost peed. Not good for small children due to some very detailed sexual scenes. It would be a good movie to watch around Christmas time since the story line is based around the month before Christmas.
Cinderella Man--Saw this in the theatre and it was awesome. Another one of those real feel good movies
Notting Hill--Probably one of my all time favorite movies. Stars Hugh Grand and Julia Roberts. My favorite line from that movie is, "I'm just a girl wanting to be loved." Very good romantic movie.
The Notebook--Read the book and saw the movie. Both were excellent, but as always the book was better then the movie.
Just a few of my favorites. We have 3 movies to watch this weekend...Undertow, Lackawanna Blues and Crash. I'll let you know how they are on Monday.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
1) You don't have to worry about birth control
2) Today, if you are gay, it's "cool" and the "in" thing to be
3) You are with someone that understands when you just don't feel good and have PMS
4) Your cycles are regulated and on schedule with the other person
5) You instantly have another wardrobe
6) God has naturally created the gay symbol and you see it after a rain storm
7) There are stores dedicated just for gay pride
8) You always have someone to watch "chick flicks" with you
9) You can be driving down the road and see a complete stranger with a gay pride sticker and wave to them, and they are friendly
10) Last, but certainly not least....LAURA!
How do they have enough attention for all the children? I know I grew up with just one brother and we were always competing for our parents attention. Can you imagine havnig to share your parents attention with 15 other brothers/sisters? I can't.
The program last winter was very interesting. The children are home schooled. When the girls were asked what they wanted to be when they grew up, they all said, "wives and mothers." I think this is kind of sad. They don't realize there is more to do then that.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
So, since that day Laura does not like it when I drive. I dont' know if this is something she will ever get over. Before the wreck she always teased me when we would swerve while driving. She would say, "you almost killed us." After the wreck she looket at me and said, "you almost killed us for real this time."
Let's talk a little about her driving. She doesn't feel it's driving unless the gas pedal is completly on the ground. I am just as scared with her driving.
So, who drives the most? We decide on who is having a better day. If you're having a better day, then you are the passenger for the day.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
"I have something to tell you"
"Ok, what is it?"
"I am so damn excited about our trip to Florida"
"I am too, but I am also sleeping"
"Just wanted to tell you that. I am so excited, I can't see straight"
"Have a good day"
Now, I am not a very talkative person in the morning. I always worry when she calls me in the mornings after she has left. My first thought is, there has been a wreck. I don't know how we are going to make it through the next 11 days.
Also, before we go on this trip there is one thing I have to take care of before we leave. Next Tuesday I am taking my Kansas Social Work License test. This is my second time taking the test. I took it last June. You need a 70 to pass and I got a 68. I have never known anyone to get more then 80 on their license test. They make these suckers so hard. There are 170 multiple choice questions. Oh, and 20 are not counted in the score. So,the way I see it, last time I missed by just 3 questions. I once had a friend that got 69 on her test. I think I would have felt better if I had failed by 20+ more points, but not just 2. My boss asked why I was taking the test right before my vacation. I told him I wanted it over before vacation. He said, "it's either going to be a really good vacation or one clouded with your results." I find out the results after I finish the test. I am going to be a nervous wreck. I remember last time my heart was pounding and my hands were shaking when I pressed the button saying I was done. You have to wait a few seconds and then a screen pops up. The first words I saw were "FAIL". It was bad.
So, wish me luck. I have been studying for 2 months now. (last time I just studied for 3 weeks) I have read the entire Social Work Dictionary. Not fun reading.
Back to studying............
Monday, October 10, 2005
1) My left foot is tickish, but my right foot is not.
2) I once played chicken with a UPS truck and WON. (just ask my cousin Joel)
3) I used to make up families for myself when I was a child. (how I imagined my family when I grew up) My Dad once found what I had written and wondered why in the world I would do that. Just my imagination I guess.
4) I was named Jennifer Jane at birth and when I was 6 weeks old, my parents changed my name. (I never thought I looked like a Jennifer anyway)
5) I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE dragonflies
6) I secretly love all of Barry Manilow's music and I have seen him in concert 4 times
7) I am a substance abuse counselor and my initials CAM are a street name for marijuana.
8) For several summers in my youth I put laundry deterogant in the fountains around my house. (at times there were bubbles all over the streets)
9) My favorite number is 11. (my favorite KC Comets Soccer player was #11. And right now I can't for the life of me remember his name)
10) I am double jointed in my wrists and arms.
The first past of Friday night Laura and I spent talking about all that had happened with my Mom. We have been dealing with this for more then a year now. When do you say enough is enough? I felt very good about last post on Friday. Because I do see myself as a very forgiving person. My parents feel as if I have lied to them and lead a double life. I don't see how I lied to them about who I was. I always brought the girls I was seeing to their house. They have had dinner with several of them. I was doing everything except coming out and saying "I am sleeping with her also". I knew what their reaction was going to be. I tried to prevent that reaction for as long as possible.
Life goes on. My life is a good one. My parents keep telling me that I must be very unhappy. NO, I am not unhappy. I am saddened that they can't accept me for who I am and love me unconditonally. I am sad that my family can not see that I have not changed. This is who I am and it is who I was all alone. I will not change my life so I fit into what they want me to be.
I wish no harm for my family. I wish them happiness and love. They did contribute to the person I am today. And for that I am grateful.
Friday, October 07, 2005
2) I look forward to going home in the evenings
3) My partner and I don't make intentional efforts to hurt the others feelings
4) I don't live one way in public and another life in private
5) I know the meaning of family
6) I don't take anyone in my life for granted
7) My partner and I are a team, not in competition of each other
8) I love myself first before anyone else
9) I continue to work on all my relationships
10) Despite all my family has done or said about me, I follow the example of Jesus. I forgive.
I don't think Laura's family cares one way or another whether you put the photos of their innocent children on your sexually perverted blog junk.
BUT YOU BETTER get little Alec's sweet photo off this steaming pile of crap. That picture was personal and NOT MEANT FOR PUBLIC VIEWING. LEGALLY. I AM TELLING YOU THIS BEFORE NICOLE SEES HER FIRST BORN ON THIS PERVERTED LOOSERS SITE. PEOPLE MIGHT THINK
HE IS A CHILD OF LESBOS OR QUEERS.
GET IT OUT OF HERE !!!!!!
He is just an innocent little boy that you will never get to know and pervert.
Fran (Alec's grandma)
This is the sickness that I must deal with. She is so concerned about me being lesbian, but she failed to mention that my brother and his wife (Alec's parents) abuse drugs. She seems to forget all that my brother has done in his lifetime. I am speechless at how ignorant she is. If anyone is a pervert in my family it would be my brother.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Here's the reality: Being a teacher is one of the hardest job and the one you get paid the least for!!!!!!!
So this is the second school year that Laura and I have been together. I will tell you, it's not easy. Not only for the teacher, but for their partners. I have mentioned several times that she is up and out of the house by 6am. She works in an inner city Middle school. Now, middle school kids even in the wealthiest cities are nothing short of CRAZY! We all know how we were as 12, 13 and 14 year olds. It was not pretty. I know for me half the time I didn't know if I was coming and going and I had the worst attitude problem. (It was during this time that I mastered the "rolling of the eyes") And I was one of the quiet ones. So, Laura gets to school and she doesn't know who of her students have not had breakfast, or let alone dinner from the night before. I heard a stastic the other day that between 14-17% of the students in her school district are homeless. WOW. So, her day starts with the kids at 7:15am and the last bell rings at 2:15. Then the real fun begins. Lesson plans, grading papers, parent/teacher conferences. It never seems to end. She finally get home around 5pm. (sometimes later)
My day "officially" starts around 7:45am. I do get up with Laura for about 30 minutes to make her lunch, etc. Anything to make her day easier. But I go back to bed for almost 2 hours. I get out of bed, take a shower, watch a few minutes of Good Morning America and then head on to work. I can really get to work at any time. They say we are suppose to be there at 9am, but if you are a few minutes late, no one says anything. I usually take my time getting to work. My day simply consists of taking phone calls and doing assessments. The phone calls I can not control,but I set my own schedule for assessments. If I decide that I don't want an assessment on a Friday afternoon, I simply tell the person on the phone "I can only get you in for an assessment Friday AM or Monday". I have it pretty easy. I am able to "surf" the net during the day. And now that I think about it, if I don't feel like answering the phone, I let my voice mail get it and I return the call when I want to. Work ends for me at 5pm. Now, there is an older lady that does not drive that I work with and I drive her home. She is the office manager and as you know most office managers run the place they work. This is the case with this lady. If she decides she wants to leave at 4:00, then I too leave since I am her ride home. Most days it's about 4:45 that we leave. Most days I am home at 5pm. Oh, and did I forget I get an entire hour off for lunch.
Sometimes I can be a selfish person. It's this dark side of myself that I try to hide. No one likes to be known as selfish. But there are times when I am selfish. One of those times was last night. I was feeling "neglected" by Laura. I forget sometimes that her day starts so much earlier then mine and she works a lot harder then me.
I'm sorry Laura. I love you.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
I heard a report (some might call it a rumor) that the reason Tom was so vocal about his love for Katie was because he was caught in bed with Rob Thomas. He does have some "gayness" to him.
Now we just await the birth and naming of this child. God, I love this Hollywood crap!!!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
10 years ago: I was getting ready to get married. I got married in Nov. 95. I was working at at book store and was wondering why I was so depressed when it should have been the happiest time of my life.
5 years ago: I was seperated from my husband and struggling financially. I had already been "kicked" out of the church for the first time and was struggling with those feelings. I was also exploring my feelings for women.
One year ago: I was getting ready for the job interview for where I am working now. I was working at a job that over worked me and under paid me. I was also enjoying getting ready to celebrate the holidays for the first time.
Yesterday: I was talking with a client about why they think they are drinking too much.
5 songs I know all the words to:
1) "Friends" by Michael W. Smith
2) "I like it, I love it" by Tim McGraw
3) "Cry" by Faith Hill
4) "Wake me when September Ends" by Green Day
5) "Remember When" by Alan Jackson
1) Cheetos Puffs
2) Oh Henry
3) Chips and Salsa
4) Key Lime Bars
5) Chips and Sassy Salsa
5 Things I would do with $100 Million Dollars
1) Take Laura to Hawaii for one month
2) Buy us a vacation home in Hawaii while we are there
3) Pay off her parents and sisters homes and buy them vacations homes in the destination of their choice
4) Open a No Kill Animal Shelter in the country
5) Have a baby
5 Places I would run away to
2) Northern Minnesota (boundary waters)
3) Cayman Islands
5) Some deserted island with Laura
5 Things I would never wear
1) A girdle
2) A bonnet
3) High heels
4) Cowboy boots
5) Anything Pink
5 Favorite TV Shows
1) The Amazing Race
2) Cold Case
3) The Biggest Loser
4) Little House on the Prairie (shh..don't say anything)
5 Greatest Joys
1) Listening to Laura laugh
2) Our nephews
3) Holding a cat and watching them sleep
4) Waking up to Laura kissing my back
5) Watching the sun go down in the evenings
5 Favorite Toys
1) The Game of Life (still love it after all these years)
2) The card game "Uno"
3) Super Mario Brothers
4) Video Poker
Monday, October 03, 2005
We really needed a weekend just for us. It seems that since school started, our weekends have been filled with running here and there to get everything done over the weekend. Yesterday as I mowed the yard she worked on her lesson plans. As I was mowing the back yard, every once in a while I would look up and we would both smile at each other. Words were not needed. It was wonderful. We sat and talked last night about what the future holds for us and how we want the future to play out. (can't tell you all the details now..maybe later)
And all we kept thinking was....19 more days til Flordia. We are so ready. The 22nd will not come soon enough.
So, today is the day we are starting over. We each have a journal so we can keep track of what we are eating and how much we are exercising. I think this is all good. I feel very good about this. Tonight we are going to the gym and I feel excited about this. Last winter when I got some disturbing health news we joined the gym, started eating right and it showed. But it didn't last. This time, it has to work. There is so much in life I want to do. I feel that I am more emotionally healthy then ever before. That is mainly the reason I would overeat. I was trying to fill this void in my life. Well, now that void is gone and I feel pretty damn good about myself and my life so far. Now it's time to put those feelings into action. I always feel better after working out. I don't want to be like my Mother who at 60 had to have a hip replacement.
It's time to start treating my body right. Wish me luck...