OK, I have a confession to make. I have not shared this on my blog because I am not proud of it, but here goes.
As many of you know I quit smoking in April and went 78 days without smoking. Something really stressful happened on June 24 and I started smoking again. I smoked for a couple days and then quit again for a week. But I was really struggling because I was still pretty stressed and ended up just giving up and smoking. I have known that I need to quit for some time now and when I met Susan my determination was at an all time high. When we were first talking she said that she thought I was a non-smoker and probably would have never sent that first email if she knew I was a smoker. To think of her not in my life really made me realize that I need to quit..and sooner then later. Susan does not like that I smoke and every time I would come in from smoking she would acknowledge that she could smell the smoke. I hate the fact that she associated Marlboro Lights with me. The first weekend she stayed at my house I could still smell her on the pillows and I realized that I probably only smell like smoke. And honestly, how romantic is that?
But I am not just doing this for Susan. I am doing this for myself first and foremost. My breathing has become bad again and I am waking up a lot at night coughing. Walking Sophie is not as fun because I always seem to be out of breathe. When Susan and I are laying in bed I can hear myself wheezing and I hate that.
So here I go again. Feel free to leave me an encouraging comment. I think I need all the encouragement I can get right now.
So far I have 2 hours as a non-smoker. Here's for forever being a non-smoker.