Good news: I have made it 24+ hours and not smoked. Even better news: I survived the last 24+ hours without having a meltdown or being overly angry.
I am kind of surprised at how easy these first few hours have been. When I quit in April I remember it being this easy, but when I tried again in July the first few days were pure hell. So the fact the first 24 hours seems similar to when I quit for almost 3 months is very good.
This time quitting was so different then any other time. Usually I pick a time (or when I run out of cigarettes) and it kind of gets dragged out. This time I decided over lunch to quit and within 45 minutes I was officially done. I threw away almost 2 full packs of cigarettes and all my lighters and ashtrays. For some reason I held onto my ashtrays and lighters the last few times. This time I really feel ready.
This is what I have been promised from some of my friends for quitting smoking:
1) If I go 6 months smoke free I will get lunch at my favorite BBQ place, Famous Dave's.
2) One co-worker said if I went all day without smoking today I would get a CD made. I am currently listening to a collection of songs by the Beatles. :)
3) I was told if I quit smoking for at least 3 months I would get dinner at my favorite Mexican restaurant.
I feel calmer about being smoke-free this time around. Even though it's still really early in my quitting, I still feel pretty confident this time.
Susan is very happy that I have quit. When she saw my profile online it still said that I was a non-smoker. So when I told her that I did smoke she was very surprised and said she never would have emailed me if she knew I was a smoker. The thought of not meeting her really scares me.
Someone told me yesterday that if I quit smoking then Susan would probably kiss me more. I guess I will find out tomorrow. :)