Thursday, July 10, 2008

Day 2 Round 2

I wish I could remember what I was thinking in this picture because from the look on my face it was something pretty serious and I seem to have so much confidence.

Thank you all for your encouraging comments about me quitting smoking. Today was a lot easier then yesterday, but I am still having major cravings for a cigarette. It doesn't seem as bad as yesterday so that is good. The evenings seem to be the hardest, but I am working hard at keeping myself busy during these hours.

One thing that I have noticed is how raw my emotions are. I am thinking about things that I have not thought about in a while and everything just seems so real and well, raw. There are certain things going on in my life that I know I need to change and it seemed a lot easier to ignore when I was smoking.

One of the things I have been thinking about is how I have allowed others to treat me. I truly believe that we show others how to treat us and it's hard accepting (and changing) the fact that I have allowed others to continue to walk over me.

I think quitting smoking is step one in regaining my confidence again.

Day 2 of Round 2 is almost done.


redfrog27 said...

amen going to write a post about that in a few minutes.

Dee said...

Keep up the good work! Congrats! You're going through a life transformation.

Lynilu said...

I'm happy for you that you've made it! Every day is a step , you know, and every step is a giant one. Keep working on it!

I think when you get through the first few days, get the nicotine out of your system, your emotions will calm down, too. :)

Call me any time you need to talk, vent, whine,laugh, brag, whatever!

MJ said...

watch out for the new and improved Caroline--I can see it all now, Sassy, Confident Caroline and she looks great.

Renaissance Woman said...

I agree with you...we do show people how to treat us. And I also agree that it's hard to when you realize that we allow others to walk on us. Congrats on realizing that fact. Yeah day 2!

Monogram Queen said...

You have to choose how you are going to act. When i'm on a diet I have to consciously NOT be bitchy. Boy it gets hard! You can do it, I know you can.

BTW You can make me an 80's mix CD anytime you feel like it. I still listen to the one you sent me before all the time.

beans said...

I hope you stick with the hard feelings and deal with them now--so that you don't have to continue to rely on the symptoms to get you through.

You are fighting the good fight, and it is an honor to be the tiniest witness to that.