Tuesday, May 13, 2008

July 14

July 14 is going to be a day of celebration. I will have my last dentist appointment to fix my mouth. It's been a long 3 years. I am so fortunate to have a dentist that will allow me to make payments because that is the only way I can get all of this done this soon. My appointment today went really well. I took my iPod and it really helped having my own music to listen to. They ended up giving me 6 shots to numb my mouth and I literally can not feel half my face. The dentist told me that I could expect to be numb for the next 3-4 hours. It's actually kind of funny when I try to take a drink of water.

Last night Sophie and I went for a walk and discovered they have started getting the pool ready for the season:
In just 2 weeks the pool will open. It has been 2 years since I have really enjoyed laying out by the pool. I can't wait until I am tan again.

Would you believe tomorrow will make one year at my job. Part of me is wondering where the time has gone, and then the other part of me feels like last May was forever ago. I still learn something new every day and have yet to be bored. I think back to that other job I accepted and started last spring and how my gut told me this was not right. I remember walking out that door not knowing how I was going to make my next car payment, but knowing it would work out somehow. When I think back to that day I am amazed at the strength and courage I had. My work has a daycare and one of the things that I love to do is go in and hold the infants. Holding a baby helps me refocus and recharge and it's the perfect way to get rid of any stress. Life seems perfect when I am holding a baby. It's hard to believe that I almost left my job last summer. STL and I were dating and she wanted me to move to St. Louis. I seriously considered it becasue I felt that I had to get out of Kansas City. STL knew that I loved my job and she really was trying to convince me that this was just a job and it didn't matter if I stayed. I told her that I was concerned about leaving since I loved what I was doing and her response was, "You don't matter to them and they could care if you stay or go." I remember thinking she was so wrong and I soon realized how wrong she was. In the end I could not leave my job and I chose my job over a girl. Yea, I made the right choice.

8 comments:

Cheeky said...

July 14 is my b-day - I will celebrate with ya

MJ said...

Thought you liked the numb feeling...would have paid you a dollar to watch you drink..haha..Glad you stayed at your job, you matter!

Sandra said...

Oooh you have a pool there? Lucky!!!

And congrats on what we hope is the END OF THE DENTAL WORK!! It must feel good to be done.

Caroline said...

cheeky--happy early birthday...you know that since you told me your b-day i will never forget that day

mj--a dollar??? wow, i thought it would have been worth at least $5. i am glad i stayed at my job too. one of my best decisions

sandra--i probably would have been done sooner, but i was too afraid to go back after my last appointment.

Lynilu said...

I remember when you were considering moving to STL, and my gut was twisting with concern. I'm really, really glad you didn't do that!!

Don't let anyone tell you .... EVER .... that you don't matter. You matter everywhere, not just in the job, but e.v.e.r.y.w.h.e.r.e.

Period. End of discussion. Got it?

:D

Sandra said...

Sophie looks like a puppy in that pic, she must have just had a haircut?

Caroline said...

lynilu--it really shows how low my self worth was back then b/c i thought it was ok for her say that. thanks for the reminder...i do know that i matter thanks to all of you

sandra--you are the 3rd person in the last week that has said sophie looks like a puppy. i think it's her haircut. she is kind of like her mama having a "baby" face...

Monogram Queen said...

Honey you dodged a serious bullet with that one...

Yay for the pool!