Wednesday, April 09, 2008

One

Day one is going pretty good. I had my last smoke on my way in today and it almost made me sick. When I got to work I threw all my lighters in the big dumpster and did not regret it at all. I have had the munchies all day, but I am trying to not eat too much.
Emotionally I am doing pretty good. I really don't feel like I am being forced to quit or I am giving up something I really love. I had gotten to the point where I was not enjoying smoking. It was making me so tired in the afternoons. It's great because right now I feel like I already have more energy.

I did tell my best friend that I was quitting and her only response was, "Good luck on your smoking ban." WTF does that mean? I don't know if I am being overly sensitive, but I guess I was hoping for a little more then what she said. I think she is upset with me and I am not too sure why. I hate when someone is upset with me and I have no idea why.

I have a feeling that Sophie and I will be going on lots of walks tonight, which she is going to love. Thankfully it's not raining like it was yesterday.

6 comments:

Julie said...

Does your BF smoke? Maybe she feels defensive because you are doing something she doesnt feel like she is ready to do?

Caroline said...

julie--no she does not smoke.

Eye of the Rainbow said...

You can do it, and sophie will love the walks :)

Amy said...

I imagine she was making a reference to the smoking ban that was just passed in KCK. People are debating about that a lot on the radio and stuff. So maybe it was a little joke?

Anyway, do your best! Moment by moment. Be good to yourself. Good luck!

redfrog27 said...

you can do it I will send pepper to she will love the walks also

Lynilu said...

We all know already that you are a strong woman. You'll be fine.

As for the BF's remark, remember that she is pretty temperamental anyway and has a lot on her own plate right now, too. Maybe it wasn't meant as it sounded. :)