Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Ten Years

Brrrrrrr!! It sure is cold here in Kansas City. I know I have said that I love the cold weather and I really do, but it's even cold for me. This morning as I was driving to work it was only 6 degrees. And I think the high was only 23.

So, let me share with you what's been going on since New Years Eve...

I realized on Monday that I will be losing my house in about three months.

I think I am angry at this fact. I have lived in this house for ten years. When I was just 24 I was able to purchase a house. Not too many 24 year old can say that. Even when I went through a nasty divorce, I was able to hold onto the house. But it seems that I will indeed lose this house.

I know I am young and I have a lot of time to recover from this mess. There are a lot of success people that have been in similar situations and they came out of them even stronger. I feel like I have already learned so much from this situation and I know there is a lot more to learn.

So, sixty days from today I should be moving out of the house for good. I am beyond excited to move out, but also kind of afraid of all that needs to happen in the next two months. I used to get depressed when I would think of moving from a house to an apartment, but it actually seems like a relief now. I will be going from 1300 square feet to just under 500. I plan on getting just a studio apartment, so it will be close quarters for me and the pets. I picture a very warm and cozy apartment.

My best friend sent me an email today that simply said:

REMEMBER: Love doesn't try to see through others, but to see others through!

I have lots of love in my life. With all this love, I can overcome anything.


11 comments:

Lynilu said...

I'm glad that kind of cold was there and not here. Oops! Did I type that out loud???

I know this is a rough stretch, but you are right on so many points: you are loved; you will get through this; you will be stronger; and you will learn new things every day of your life. This is only the beginning for you.

You know, Caroline, I've had to learn a lot in the last couple years because my life was turned upside down. Look at where I am, what my life has become. Your challenges are different, but if you keep on keeping on, you will succeed.

One of my favorites mugs has a saying that I'm going to pass on to you: Rise above the storm and you will find the sunshine. --M. F. Fernandez

And the mantra that got me through the daily smack-downs: There is no way out -- only a way forward. Michael Hollings

:)

SassyFemme said...

My heart just breaks that you're in this mess right now, but I know you're strong and will be okay.

Kelly said...

I'm so sorry that you're in this situation. I really hate that it isn't your doing that got you here. Is there any chance a bankruptcy filing could save the house by restructuring your payments? I know I'm grasping at straws, your house is just so important to you. I'm really sorry.

traci said...

You sound good in spite of the situation. Good job! It will be hard, no doubt. You will survive, without a doubt. I have faith in you Caroline.

Sandra said...

I'm wondering about what Kelly said too - have you looked into it? I know you have enough spunk to fight for the house if you still want it, maybe there's still a way? I do know that the banks are doing everything they can to avoid foreclosures right now, the market being what it is. Please don't give up too easily, they might work with you!

Sandra said...

I'm wondering about what Kelly said too - have you looked into it? I know you have enough spunk to fight for the house if you still want it, maybe there's still a way? I do know that the banks are doing everything they can to avoid foreclosures right now, the market being what it is. Please don't give up too easily, they might work with you!

Julie said...

Change might be a good thing, and letting go.
Lynilu beat me once again to say everything right. It seems like you've been fighting to keep it, but not really sure you want to stay there at the same time. I totally get it, but I feel like I am reading that you are also looking forward to loosening your grip a little and living in a cozier space with less financial burden. This sounds like the right choice to me. Either way, I am sending you good thoughts.
Hey, what weekend will you be in MN?

Katie said...

Good luck with whatever happens.

Patti said...

Caroline you have the right attitude in that your apartment will be a warm, cozy place for you and the pets. Everything happens for a reason. You disliked the neighborhood and a new start can be a good thing. Try not to focus on the fact that it was your Grandma's house etc. Hugs my friend

Shannon said...

I'm so sorry to hear you have to move, but you have a great attitude about it.

Casey said...

I have been out of touch for a couple weeks so I am jus tnow getting caught up. I am so sorry for all that you are facing but I honestly believe that every single thing we face makes us stronger. It's no fun in the in between time but in the end, it always seems to work out. Big hugs to you and may 2008 bring you so many good things. May it be a blessed year for ALL of us!