Facing it Head On

I made another important decision today.

I really want to remain friends with Laura and in order for that to happen I need to leave for a while. I am making myself miserable as well as Laura. I need to leave so that our friendship has room to grown.

I am thrilled to be able to go and visit Lynilu and see her new house. It will be good to get out of town and spend some time with myself. I am taking Sophie dog with me for the companionship on the road. She gets a little nervous in the car, so we went and got her some "happy pills" from the vet. I am hoping they will relax her enough that she doesn't mind that we are in the car for 12 hours. I will be leaving around noon tomorrow and plan on doing 1/2 the drive. On Monday I will continue on and arrive at Lynilu's by mid afternoon. I plan on staying until Easter Sunday when I will start my venture home.

It was hard admitting to myself that Laura and I get along better when we are not around each other. I hope that this is just a temporary thing because it's important to both of us that we remain friends.

Tomorrow as I leave I will be facing my fear head on. Throughout all of this my biggest fear has been that Laura and I would no longer be partners. Tomorrow is the day that I will look that fear in the eye and say to myself "I am no longer afraid".