So yesterday Laura was not feeling well. She seems to have come down with a cold. Last weekend we went and visited with her sister who had a cold and then on Thnaksgiving, her sisters husband was sick. So, we are thinking that is where she got it. So, she pretty much slept all day which was fine because I know she wasn't feeling well. I tried to keep myself occupied during the day. I went to the gym, I went and got us take out from our favorite Mexican place (Saturday is our day to eat out and not think too much about losing weight) and then started picking up around the house. Around 3:00pm I am pretty bored. I have cleaned as much as I can, organized more then I needed to. There's nothing to it, I AM BORED. So, what do I do. I do one of the stupiest things. I decide to go to the boat, a.k.a. casino. The casino sends us coupons for *free cash weekly* but you never go in and spend just that amount. I am proud of myself because I didn't spend as much as I have sometimes in the past. But I am still pissed at myself. First of all, the coupon I had for this week (for $10) is what I started playing with. I started out at the video poker. At one point, with not having put any of my own cash in, I was up to $47. I should have walked away then. But no, I kept playing hoping to hit the big one. It never happened. Oh well...
So, I drove home disgusted with myself. I only spent $60 of my own money, but still I hate walking out having just given $60 to the casino. It would have been easier to just slip the money under the front door and never walk in.
I am lucky because I don't have anything I am addcited to that needs an intervention. But, I could tell you, gambling slots, could be a major addiction for me.
I came home and threw away rest of my coupons from the casino and vowed never to go back again. We'll see how long it lasts this time.
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The more I read about people's gambling experiences, the more I am convinced that gambling is a very damaging vice. It has absolutely no appeal for me, but I can relate to the addiction. I have a serious problem with pot: I have to totally abstain from it, because if I have it I have to smoke it constantly until it is all gone. So I just don't allow myself to have it. I can't allow myself to have it. I've worked too hard and come too far in life to blow it on an addiction.
My partner's family has suffered because of her father's gambling addiction. They've gone without electricity or water, and their home was foreclosed on. And another friend just broke off an engagement because her fiance could not stay away from the casinos. Now she's got a bay and a deadbeat ex who won't pay child support.
Good for you for tossing your remaining coupons.
Thanks Kim for sharing. I work as a substance abuse counselor and see how an addiction can run your life as well as ruin your life. In my days I also enjoyed pot. It is also something that i just can't have around. I have always had an addictive personality. Just have to control those additive things before they control you.
My addiction is the computer and on-line games and reading blogs. LOL
Just be careful if you go back and dont take any extra money that you dont want to spend.
I have an addictive personality too, I think. Never done drugs and don't drink much, but food is clearly my addiction!!! :(
Sorry you lost the $60, but at least you had fun, eh?
Hugs to Laura. I hope she is better soon. It seems a number of people in the blogsphere have come down with colds, so avoid catching one yourself if you can. It's that season!
Take care!
Francesa reminded me of another addiction....the internet and blogging. Glad to hear I am not alone
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