This song (I tried to put the video on my blog, but copyright laws won't let me) has always spoken right to my heart. As I was driving up to see S yesterday I put in one of the CD’s I made and this song came on and I immediately went back to when I first started working at my current job. Songs have always been a way for me to remember experiences or different time periods in my life and this song is the song I listened to constantly right when I started my job.
When I think back to the person I was when I walked in the front door on that first day, I am truly amazed. I have become a more confident person and a person that is really happy with herself. Yes, I think S has a lot to do with that, but I think even more then S, my job played a huge role in helping me heal and grow into a better person. Because of all the support and love I received from those I work with I think I became a better person and that helped me be in a perfect place when S came into my life.
I was broken when I started my job. I felt like I was completely alone in the world and I had no idea where my life was headed. But the minute I started my job I felt like I had a purpose again. I felt like I finally found someplace that I belonged. I felt needed for the first time in months.
My co-workers have become my friends and a few of them have become like family to me. One of my co-workers has a thing in her office that says, “I could not love you more if you had been born into my family.” Every time I am in her office and I see that I wonder if she realizes that is how I feel about her? They have challenged me, they have made me fight when I thought I had no more strength, they invited me into their own families and made me feel welcome and most importantly they made me feel like I mattered in this world.
Now when I hear this song I don’t think about all the bad stuff I went through two years ago, instead of I think of my job and the people I met at my job that helped fix me.