I decided a couple days ago that it would probably be a good idea to go and talk to someone about things. The last couple of weeks I seem to be super stressed and feeling very anxious about every single thing. The first thing this new therapist suggested was that my medication may need to be adjusted. I hadn't even thought that maybe the Celexsa had leveled out, but it seemed to make perfect sense. I have an appointment next week with my Dr. to get a new RX and possibly something for anxiety. I don't have anxiety everyday, but I do have moments where things seem to be completely overwhelming.
She also suggested that I start writing about my feelings towards my family and Laura. I didn't tell her that I have a blog, but I do agree that I need to keep a private journal where I don't have to censor myself. Maybe I will start a second blog where I am completely anonymous.
Here's the thing......I have fallen in love with this amazing woman and I will lose her if I don't work through some of these issues. It's kind of like my drain has gotten clogged with issues regarding my parents and Laura and I am not able to move forward. I can't let Susan in until I get rid of this crap. I already know that all the work will be worth it.
Here's something to make you guys smile. Guess who was happy to see me when I got home from work tonight:
Hope everyone has a great Halloween.