When I quit smoking 76 days ago I made a list of things that if they happened then I gave myself permission to have a cigarette.
Today something happened that was not on that list but really should have been. It's not been a good day and I am just really sad tonight. I spent most of the day crying and trying to pull myself together. By about 12:30 I decided that I was going to allow myself a day to cry and feel this pain. I hope it's true that you must feel in order to heal because I have done a lot of feeling this pain today. I hope it leads to some kind of healing.
On my way home I bought a pack of cigarettes. No it did not taste good and yes I have had a headache most of the day. I am looking at today as a small hiccup and I will be a non-smoker again tomorrow.
People say that I am strong, but today was not one of my strong days.
Tomorrow I will do better.