Well, today was a total loss.
I woke up around 6:30am with a headache. As I got ready for work my headache got worse. The pain came in waves and it literally took my breathe away. As I was driving into work M&M called to say good morning. I told her that I had to get off the phone because I thought I was going to be sick. (note to self: don't ever do that to M&M again...boy did she worry) I managed to get to work and I just sat in my office. I took 4 Advil and prayed that the pain would go away. A few minutes later I walked to the bathroom and the pain went away a little. But the minute I was back in my office I thought I was either going to pass out or throw up. I finally decided that I could not sit at work anymore and I had to go home. I called my boss to let her know and then I drove home.
I laid down all afternoon and my headache is finally gone. Today really scared me because it was the worst headache I have ever had and I have never been in so much pain. I kept wondering if I was having an brain aneurysm. My stomach was so upset that I could not eat anything all day. My appetite is coming back a little this evening.
I know quitting smoking was the best thing for me, but I have been sick more in the last month then I have in the last two years. I often wonder if my body is just trying to get rid of all the toxins I inhaled while smoking. I think I owe my body an apology.
M&M also suggested that I might be under more stress then what I am admitting to. She might be right. It's been a tough week emotionally and I do have a lot on my mind. I started working on my Positive Board and it's going well. I put it up on my wall and every time I think of something positive about myself I write it up there. The ones I am more confident about are in marker and the ones I am still trying to convince myself of are written in pencil. One step at a time.
Tomorrow is Friday and payday. Does it get any better?