You have no idea how nice it is to write on my blog about something good instead of something sad. It's been a long and tough year.
I haven't blogged about this much lately (hmmm...I wonder why?), but tomorrow I will be 2 weeks smoke free. Today was hard because for some reason I really wanted a cigarette. I think the craving today was the worst I have had since I quit. I really am proud of myself and so happy that I finally had the courage to quit.
So I have thought long and hard about what to call her on my blog. I hate putting real names because I never know who is reading. I've thought about calling her my M&M since those are her initials. Another good reason for calling her M&M: both our last names start with M and we could refer to ourselves as M&M. Is this name stupid?
Speaking of M&M, things are going well. We are just taking our time and really getting to know each other. Like I said the other day, we do not make sense to the outside world, but really we are very similar. She says we are kindred spirits and I love it when she says that. She has the warmest smile when I first see her. And if we are around other people she does this thing with her eyes that just me all giddy. She loves to sleep and is blaming me for her not getting much sleep in the last week. We both have plans for Saturday and are already saying how much we will miss each other. She told me how comforting it is to have me sitting next to her in church. She told me last night that I will never be alone again. It all just seems so right and I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings for us.
Today at work someone put this message on my dry erase board. It was a good reminder that I need to do what makes me happy and it's OK to be unique in this world.
I love this feeling of being loved and happy.