Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Flu or Blues?

I don't know if I am still trying to recover from the flu or if my meds are not working. I am just kind of feeling blah and not real motivated to do anything.

At work I have about 4 evaluations to do and I just can't seem to make myself complete them. It doesn't help that these 4 techs are not exactly my shining stars and it's like pulling teeth to get them to just do their job. I have given myself until Friday to complete them, but setting up the meeting with the techs to go over the evaluations will have to be a whole different goal.

I think I am kind of lonely as well. I miss having someone special in my life and wonder how long I will have to wait until she comes into my life. Sometimes it just doesn't seem fair that others find love so much easier then me. At times like this I look at myself and see that I am overweight and know that this has to be part of the reason I am not finding someone. Then there is part of me that knows I don't want to be with someone that just looks at the outside.

One of my friends is a friend with benefits. She tells me all the time that I am beautiful and sexy and anyone would be lucky to be with me. At times I believe her and then other times I wonder if that was so true then she would want to be with me as much as I want to be with her.

Sometimes life just sucks.

6 comments:

LostInCO said...

It could be a little of both... I think it is normal to get a little lonely time to time. I know I do. Keep your chin up. You never know when that special someone will show up for you.

Fern said...

Friends with benefits usually end badly, I've found. One party hopes for more and gets hurt, then the friendship also suffers. Ugh.

Don't get down, and don't focus on your appearance. If you feel bad about yourself, you'll project that. You want someone who will like you and accept you as you are, so you have to like and accept yourself as you are.

Here's hoping the lonely feeling passes, as well as the flu bug, and you are feeling back to yourself very soon!

redfrog27 said...

Changing your apperance to please someone else is never right.If the person cant love you for you then they are not worth the time.Hope you get to feeling better soon

Lynilu said...

Yep, I'd guess it's some of each. Being sick lowers your resistance to the emotional stuff, too. Just be careful and take care of yourself, ease yourself back into a full schedule, and drink lots of water. I know that sounds strange, but you need the water to flush your system and rehydrate after what you went through. Once you body is back to normal, I'm betting your blues will be a softer shade. Hugs. :)

Patti said...

I just want you to find Ms. Right not Mrs Right-Now :)

Audra said...

I agree with Patti!

I think this friend is correct in saying that you are beautiful and sexy! You always look very pretty to me in the photos that you post!