I don't know if I am still trying to recover from the flu or if my meds are not working. I am just kind of feeling blah and not real motivated to do anything.
At work I have about 4 evaluations to do and I just can't seem to make myself complete them. It doesn't help that these 4 techs are not exactly my shining stars and it's like pulling teeth to get them to just do their job. I have given myself until Friday to complete them, but setting up the meeting with the techs to go over the evaluations will have to be a whole different goal.
I think I am kind of lonely as well. I miss having someone special in my life and wonder how long I will have to wait until she comes into my life. Sometimes it just doesn't seem fair that others find love so much easier then me. At times like this I look at myself and see that I am overweight and know that this has to be part of the reason I am not finding someone. Then there is part of me that knows I don't want to be with someone that just looks at the outside.
One of my friends is a friend with benefits. She tells me all the time that I am beautiful and sexy and anyone would be lucky to be with me. At times I believe her and then other times I wonder if that was so true then she would want to be with me as much as I want to be with her.
Sometimes life just sucks.