I have a lot of people in my life that just don't understand why I blog and share so much with people I don't know. I have even wondered myself why I chose to share so many private and personal things on my blog. It wasn't until I was writing a comment to Julie that it all made sense to me. It still amazes me how many wonderful people I have met via this blog and how much inspiration and courage I get from your lives.
Up until a year ago, I was encouraged not to share too much on my blog. If you go back and read the first two years of my blog you will see that I really only shared the good things that were going on. I wonder if I had been more honest in my writing if things would have turned out differently. At some point in the past year I decided that in order for me to truly heal and let go of things I would need to put it out there so I could no longer ignore it either.
Even though I still struggle with my self-esteem, I think overall my self-esteem is pretty healthy. I don't hide anything anymore and I am honest almost to a fault. One of my better traits is I can not lie. And if I try to lie, you will see right through me and know I am lying. If you don't believe me, just ask Lynilu. :)
The point of this post: I think I am just thankful that I have found my safe place to write and share my life. I used to be really afraid of people finding out what I was really thinking or feeling. My thoughts now are: what you see is what you get. If you can't accept everything about me then I don't have time for you. In the end we are all the same and in this thing called life together. Life is too short to spend it with people that hate instead of love.
I would also like to thank each of you for sharing on your blogs. You have no idea how much strength and courage I get from reading your blogs. I read what some of you are going through and how you are handling things with so much grace and it helps me become a better person. You guys are the best and I just wanted you to know that.