Sunday, June 17, 2007

Alone With My Thoughts

I have learned a couple important lesson this past week: It's no fun sifting through shit and it's not fair to have someone else sift through your shit.

It's not been a good couple of days in Caroline in the City World. I have made some mistakes and there are a few that I am not sure I can correct. And even if I can correct them, it will take a lot of time and patience.

But I have to remember that even though some have been hurt by me in the last couple days, sometimes you have to make a decision to no longer hurt someone no matter what that means or how much that person hurts from that decision.

I think it's now time for me to be alone with just my thoughts.

11 comments:

Casey said...

Sorry you are having a tough time and I hope it all sorts itself out quickly. Good luck with your thoughts.

One Messed Up Chick said...

Thinking of you :)

Anonymous said...

thinking of you. hugs.

Holly said...

Sounds like you are having a little rough spot. We're sending some love your way!

Lynilu said...

Well, let's see ... if you were just being plain ol' purposefully mean, yeah, you need to change your interactions. However, you are *not* responsible for others' feelings!! Remember what we learned AT Avila and KU ... no one can make you feel anything, nor can you make someone else have whatever feelings they experience. If you are being true to yourself (extremely important, as you know) and you're being honest, and you aren't acting with malice, then don't put a freighter trunk of guilt on your own back. It is not your place to carry around someone else's emotional baggage!!

This is just a rough time for you and everyone in your life, and until you move on, just be gentle and know your boundaries. And remember that if you are acting responsibly, you will do what you need to do for yourself first. Then, and only then, can you be appropriately responsive to others and work with/around/through their emotional responses.

Smile. It was just a rough couple days, and there are many bright ones ahead! :)

Monogram Queen said...

Sending you some positive vibes that you do the things that are right for YOU.

Caroline said...

casey--it will sort itself out. it actually already is

eye--thank you...

traci--thanks for the hug. hugs feel good now

holly--it's just a small rough spot. nothing too bad....thanks for the love

lynilu--i am feeling good today. that is how i know i made the right decision. thanks for all your kind words.

Caroline said...

patti--thanks for the good vibes. all in all everything is really good...just a couple rough days.

Ragged Around the Edges said...

Hang in there. . . this too shall make you stronger.

Caroline said...

ragged--would you believe i already feel stronger. thanks for your support.

Jamie said...

I am a new reader and I love your blog----I am hoping for good things for you now!