Today has been a hard day. I heard from the claims adjuster and the amount they are going to pay me for my car and the amount I owe is about $3000 short. I guess I shouldn't say "I owe" because Laura's name is on the title and loan as well. I decided that I don't need to talk to her anymore and will be giving the claims adjuster her name and number so he can coordinate with her to sign off on the title. It will be nice having no more ties to her.
I know that I will get through this and probably be stronger, but it's just a struggle right now to see how it's all going to work out. I know I just need to trust the process and maybe this experience is teaching me how to stop worrying about things I have no control over.
Now I start looking for a car. It's probably going to take another week for all the paperwork to be signed, etc and then I will have 5 more days with the rental car. I am hoping to go looking for a car next week and hopefully I can find something fairly cheap and something I would like.
Tomorrow I am shutting off my cable and home phone. One of the shows that I am going to miss is the one with the Duggars. (the family with 18 kids) Tonight the oldest son gets married, so I am happy that I get to see this episode. Getting rid of cable will mean no more Little House, but thankfully one of my wonderful blogger friends sent me the first season on DVD last year. I am even thinking of not having cable once I move. I watch too much TV anyway, so hopefully not having cable will mean I will do more reading or spend time outside. Plus once I move, I will have S to entertain me. And to me.....that is way better then cable TV. :)
I just keep telling myself that it will all work out. I have no idea how...but I have faith that it will.