Thursday, December 18, 2008

10 Weeks

Today marks 10 weeks since I gave up the nasty habit of smoking. In just 9 days I will have surpassed where I relapsed last summer. I am anxious to get past that point, but have full confidence that I will not only get past it but I will never smoke again. It has been one of the hardest things I have ever done, but I also have never been more proud of myself. The fact that I have quit smoking when I smell cigarette smoke almost all day is a very good thing. About 90% of our clients smoke and when they are on smoke breaks it seems to overtake the entire front end of the building. Plus, the employee smoking area is right outside my window so I usually smell it then as well. I do miss going out and socializing with my co-workers. I am hoping one day I will be able to go out with them again and just not smoke,

I still have cravings for a cigarette and look forward to the day when I don't even think about it. Just this past week I started coughing again at night, so I don't know if my body is still trying to get out all the poisons I had inhaled. I figured that since I quit smoking I have smoked 2100 less cigarettes. Every time I do these calculations I am just shocked at how much I smoked.

We are suppose to be getting some nasty weather this afternoon and tonight. They are calling for freezing rain, but I wonder if we will actually get that. It has warmed up the last couple of days, so I am hoping that it will be warm enough to just be rain. I don't know what it is, but this year the cold has really been bothering me. It takes me hours to warm up when I get home and I usually end up taking a hot bath just to get warm. I wonder if being so cold this year has anything to do with quitting smoking.

I am really hoping that the weather doesn't get too bad. S and I are suppose to get together this weekend and it would totally suck if we couldn't because of the weather. Not being able to see S during the week really makes the weekends precious. Speaking of my sweetheart, this is my new favorite song. This song really makes me think of S and how incredibly happy she makes me. And yes, it's OK if you laugh at me for liking this song. My co-workers have already made fun of me.


Lynilu said...

I'm very glad you quit. And I wouldn't be surprised that your body's internal thermostat is readjusting. Some of the things that have been added to cigs might have dulled your responses. Just a theory of my own.

In NM, people can't hover around entrances. I don't know the legal limit, but they have to be XX feet away from doors to light up. It really helps. I remember walking in to businesses in KC and holding my breath as I went through the cloud of nastiness. gah.

I hope your weather is too bad, but it is pretty foul everywhere. Right now it is bright and sunny with rain falling and the wind gusting! What's with that? I hope your drive home is OK. I'm guessing you'll find a way to spend the weekend together! Where there is a will, there is a way .... and you have more "will" stored up than the average football team when it comes to your time with S!! :D I'm happy for you!

redfrog27 said...

Go Caroline!! Go Caroline yaaaaay for not smoking. Winter starts Sunday and already I am counting down till spring and or summer.

R said...

I think it's great u quit. I know how hard it is. 3 years for me, actually 3 1/2 now. WOW! You can do it!! And btw, I LOVE THE SONG!!

MJ said...

I'm proud of you for not smoking. I know it's been hard but good for you.

Monogram Queen said...

I'm very glad you quit too!

Hoping the weather doesn't stop you from seeing your sweetie too!