When I was diagnosed as a borderline diabetic in January 2005 Laura was devastated. I later found out that she went to her Mom and cried about my diagnosis. She went out and bought a bunch of books and told me exactly what I needed to do to get better. I think she was trying to be good about it, but the way she brought the information to me was not healthy at all. I always felt bad for being a diabetic and somehow felt ashamed and I think it has to do with how Laura reacted to my initial diagnosis. It was like my diagnosis as a diabetic was making her look bad in some way and she needed to make sure that she did not look bad in anyway. (She was a lot like my Mom in that way) I don't think she realized that this had nothing to do with her. I really think she was doing what she thought was best, but it was just not healthy for either of us.
When I told Susan about the test results, the first thing she said was, "So what is our plan". I loved that she didn't make me feel bad or embarrassed and I really loved how she wanted to be included in my plan, not create the plan. So over the weekend we talked about what my plan was and I really feel for the first time that I can control my diabetes and get healthy.
I started my medication over the weekend and have some side effects, but nothing too major. I feel better just knowing I am doing something to help my body. And now that it's winter I know I will be outside more often. Sophie has been driving me crazy wanting to be outside all the time. It's times like this that I am really sad that she does not have a yard. Sophie loves winter and cold weather so much that she would just stay outside for a couple of hours with no problem. One day we'll have a yard again.
Yesterday Susan and I met MJ and Cowboy for breakfast. It was great that MJ was finally able to meet Susan since I seem to talk about her a lot. We then went to a park where I took some pictures of MJ and Cowboy for their wedding invitations. And then Susan was able to meet the infamous Sadie. Sadie was so excited to see me and I asked if she wanted to come home with me, but MJ kept saying, "No."
A year ago my life was up in the air. Now I feel like things have settled down and I am content, happy and in love. Can it get any better?