Last night right before I went to bed I read the obituaries; as I do everyday. Every time I get close to the M's I kind of hold my breathe because I am worried that I will see that one of my parents has passed away. Well, last night I read that my late Grandma's (Mom's Mom) husband passed away on Sunday.
F became part of our family in 1985 when he married my Grandma. My Grandpa had passed away two years earlier and I loved the fact that my Grandma found someone. F was such a sweet and gentle person. And he was so good to my Grandmother. Whatever my Grandma wanted he got for her. For their honeymoon he took her to New Zealand because she had always wanted to go there. When F and my Grandma got married I was told that didn't have to call him Grandpa and I could call him by his first name if that made me feel more comfortable. I always did call him by his first name, but I know he looked at us kids (5 including my cousins) as his Grand kids. When I got married he said to me, "I know I have only been your Grandpa for ten years, but I love you very much." I really didn't know my Mom's Dad and have always referred to him as my Grandpa, but now that F is gone I wish I had called him Grandpa because he was exactly that....my Grandpa. I know that is something he would have really wanted.
I am also sad that I was not notified by my family. Just a few weeks ago I read in the obituaries that my Great Aunt passed away. I know my family doesn't want anything to do with me, but I would appreciate if someone would let me know if someone passes away.
The Memorial Service for F is on Saturday. I know I would not be welcome if I went, but there is still part of me that thinks I need to say goodbye to my Grandpa.