This is one of my favorite pictures of Ben. To me it looks like he is peaking out to make sure the coast is clear. That's kind of how I feel right now. I am slowly peaking around the corner and checking to make sure I am OK.
When we are faced with life's challenges I think we learn a lot about not only those around us, but ourselves as well. To say the last month has been a challenge is probably the understatement of the year. I have tried to keep myself above water, but I have had several days where I go under and slowly see the surface disappearing. It's hard to predict what you would do in certain situations and I certainly was not prepared for this past month.
With everything I go through in life I try to figure out what lesson I need to be learning. For the last 29 days I have been trying to figure out what my lesson was suppose to be. I was betrayed on so many levels by someone that I felt was a friend and in just one instant how I dealt with things in the past was out there for so many people to know. I am working on not being ashamed of how I coped with the break-up and my family, but I feel that my choice to share it was stolen. Think about your deepest secret and now think about how it would feel if that secret was suddenly out there in the open.
One of the hardest things to do is to forgive someone that has really hurt you. The way I see it, I have two choices: I can continue to be angry with this person and give them the control or I can forgive them and let go and let God.
I am choosing forgiveness.