Monday, July 14, 2008

A Bullet Kind of Day

*I am ready for summer to be over. Yes I love laying out by the pool and getting tan, but I would much rather it be fall or winter. I am ready for those evenings where you can leave the windows open. And of course I am ready for the holidays. I can't wait to decorate my apartment this year.

*My DVD player is not working. I can't just go out and buy another DVD player since this one came with the surround sound. The speakers work fine, but it's not reading the discs. I really miss listening to music in the mornings and now I suddenly see 5 movies that I would love to rent.

*I came across this Saturday morning:
All Jehovah's Witnesses carry this card so they do not receive a blood transfusion. The first 31 years of my life I carried this in my wallet. You were not suppose to go anywhere without it; even if you were just walking down the street. As much time as I spent being taught the ways of the witnesses, you would think I would know why they don't accept blood. Really, I couldn't tell you.

*I went to the dentist today to have my crown put on and for a cleaning. The dental hygienist did mention that my gums looked a lot better. She was so excited when I told her that I quit smoking. Hearing her tell me what it was doing to my gums today has helped me to really see the damage it was doing to me. It was also nice to have someone that doesn't even know me get so excited about me quitting smoking.

*I have gone back and forth about having a baby, but in the last couple of months I have felt this real desire to have a baby. I don't know if it is because there are like 3 people at work that are pregnant and several others that are trying, or maybe it's because I am finally ready to have a child. When I used to think about having a family, I always saw me as the one carrying the baby. I think I always worried about bonding with a child that I did not give birth and I think a lot of that is because of my relationship with my own Mom. A few weeks ago I realized that just because I don't have the best relationship with my Mom doesn't mean I wouldn't bond with a child that my partner gave birth to.

*I am exercising 30 minutes a day and have never felt better. It is amazing how much more I can do now that I am not smoking. When I used to go to the gym I would have a cigarette on my way there and as soon as I was done I would light up again. My poor lungs.


Fern said...

I think you'd make an awesome mom. Also, I'm thrilled for you that you've been able to avoid cigarettes for so long!!

I'm excited about Christmas decorating already too. Bring on the snow!

MJ said...

I'm glad you are not smoking again--stop wishing summer away--decorate you apartment for Christmas in July.

Locks said...

wow! glad to read that you've quit! Keep up the good work!


Renaissance Woman said...

Good for you! Seems to be coming together for you and the energy really comes out in your writting. I love my exes child with all of my heart, so bonding with a child happens regardless of who gives birth.

Monogram Queen said...

That "no blood" thing is WEIRD.

I think you'd be a great Mom and I think you'd bond whether you carried the child or not.

Lynilu said...

Yep, being a mom has little to do with direct blood relationship. It's what is in the heart. You'd be great! :)

I got curious about the JW/blood thing, and here is one explanation for it:'s_Witnesses#Blood

As I read that (I haven't read the actual bible verses) I would think that JWs would be strict vegetarians, too!! Interesting! And another interesting site I found was this: Hmmmmm. To quote Col. Klink, "Verrry interrrresting."

R said...

I think that is totally awesome of you being a mom. I think you would be fabulous as well. Just follow your heart in what you feel and you will not go wrong.
Good for you for exercising!! WOO HOO!! :) Send me that motivation please!!

Sandra said...

Have you tried entering the make/model of your DVD player into eBay to see if you can replace just the player? I'd look, it might be really cheap!

Good for you with the exercise, I'm loving it too. Now we have to stick with it!

traci said...

You are doing good things Caroline!