Sunday, March 09, 2008

Second Chance

A year ago today my life completely changed. It was like a sudden turn in the road that I never saw coming. I was blindsided and betrayed by the person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with.

I remember every detail of that weekend and for many months afterwards, those details haunted me. When I realized she was on her way to see another woman I was in shock; literally. And I had no idea what to do. I have never been so scared in my life.

A few months later I realized that I could sit here and feel sorry for myself or I could turn it around and make something good out of a horrible situation. With the help of so many of you, I decided I was worth it and I started fighting for myself.

I have learned more in the last year then I have my entire life. I learned that I should never have to change for someone that loves me. I had spent my entire life trying to makes others happy; even if that meant giving up what I wanted. Someone that loves me will accept everything about me; the good, bad, ugly and dark.

For the first time in my life I know what I want my future relationship to be like. And I know that I don't have to just settle. I have learned that it's OK not to be in a relationship. I would rather be single and happy then in a relationship with someone that does not love all of me.

I really feel that God gave me another chance at life. I was living a life where I didn't appreciate things or those that were in my life.

So today I celebrate my second chance. And I want to do something to mark this day. So I am going to ask you guys a favor. Thanks to Jolene, I got a great idea as to how I can mark this day with those that have helped me the most. I want to know how you guys see me. So, on a 4X6 index card please write/design one word that you would use to describe me. I am then going to put them all together on a collage, frame it and put it up in my home. Looking at all of your words will inspire me on a daily basis. Please put your index card in an envelope and mail to:

Caroline Murphy
10011 Bennington Avenue
Kansas City, MO 64134
(this is my old address, but all mail will be forwarded to my new address)

You can sign your name or you can remain anonymous. I am wanting to put the collage together in a few weeks, so it would be wonderful if I had all the cards by April 15.

Thank you all for being there along this journey. I thank each of you for your love, support and endless words of encouragement.

8 comments:

Eye of the Rainbow said...

Ill send you one!!!

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R and J said...

Sounds great. Second chances are good. I'll be glad when I can feel like you do now.

traci said...

I'm already 'seeing' my card for you! Good job honey!

Sandra said...

I don't have any 4x6 index cards but I'll improvise something!!

redfrog27 said...

i will send one out also

Julie said...

I am going to send you one!
Hey, I changed my web address - click on the link to save the new one.

Patti said...

I think this is a beautiful idea. I need to do one for you and one for Jolene also.