Finally

Today the claims adjuster came out to my office so I could sign the check for the car. I am not sure what I was expecting, but the guy was actually really nice. I know claims adjusters have a bad rap, but my adjuster seems to be a nice guy. He told me that the guy that hit me admitted that he was not paying attention and was distracted. I was a little surprised that he told me this, but I also think it's very clear that the wreck was completely his fault. He even shared with me that his 11 year old twin boys have Cystic Fibrous. We also talked about my claim for the personal injury and the how that process will work. I was really surprised at how our entire interaction went.

The best part of today......By signing the check I have no more ties to Laura. I feel like I should celebrate. I have been waiting for this day since March 7, 2007. I don't hate Laura and I know we had some really good times, but it feels so damn good knowing that we are no longer connected to each other.

As I get ready to leave my current job, I can't help but think about where I was when I started in May 2007. I am not sure if I have ever shared this, but a week before I started my job I sat in my living room with an entire bottle of sleeping pills and tried to find a reason why I should not just end it all. I had even called Laura's parents asking them if they could watch Sophie for a day because I didn't want her there when I killed myself. Thankfully they said they couldn't watch her. As I sat there I heard s small voice and I decided to call one of my friends. She came right over and talked with me and helped me come up with a plan of how I was going to address all the problems I had. I am so thankful for that friend and the fact that I didn't give up that night. I also believe that my job and those I work with saved my life. A couple of my co-workers have become my closest friends and I can't imagine my life without them. It's going to be hard saying goodbye to them.

S had a rough day at work and I hate that I am 2 hours away from her. So my #2 reason why I am so glad I am moving....I can give my girl a hug when she is having a bad day.