It's Friday and I am Exhausted

Yesterday I was not feeling well and pretty sore so I decided to take the day off from work. Not only am I really sore, but I get tired so easily. I am having problems with my right ankle (and leg) so walking anywhere has been a struggle and just wears me out. I am having back spasms, neck spasms and pain and just overall feel like crap. I am having trouble sleeping at night because I can't get in a position that is comfortable. I feel so old.

I started my treatments yesterday for my neck, back and right ankle. Right now I am mainly getting warm electrical treatments on the muscles. It feels so good and they put a huge heating pad on my back during the treatments. When I am laying there I feel no pain. The Doctor has tried to do some adjustments, but I have a lot more healing to do before he can actually do some good. I go every day (including Saturdays) for the treatments and I am waiting for the day when I start feeling better afterwards. Right now I feel a little more sore when I leave, but the Doctor has guaranteed me that soon I will feel better. I hope so.

I have an appointment on Tuesday with a lawyer and I feel good about that. Until I made that appointment I kind of felt alone in this whole thing and now I know that I will soon have someone out there working for me to help me recover what I have lost in this whole mess.

Yesterday the claims adjuster called me and offered me $3000 less for my car then what I owe. I really had no choice but to settle with the property damage. My car is being brought to a lot in Kansas City, so hopefully Monday I can go get my things out of the car. I am going to take a lot more pictures of the car as well. I think the ones I have are good, but I don't think it will hurt to take some more in different views. I am going to try to pry off the H that is in the back for a memento. Since the back is all smashed up, I don't think they will notice or care.

Yesterday I took my cable box and turned it in, so I am on day 2 without cable. A co-worker is letting me use his digital converter so I at least can get the local channels. It's really not that bad and I am thinking that maybe I should have done this a long time ago. I realized today that this is the first time (that I remember) in my life where I have not had cable. I was talking to a co-worker today about how people were joking that I was spoiled and she said, "you weren't spoiled, just taken care of really well." I liked the way she rephrased that. I remember when I was 8 or 9 watching VH1 and MTV with my Mom and we were so excited about the music videos. I think one of the channels I will miss the most is Lifetime. I love those Lifetime movies.

Thank you so much for all your comments and emails about me going private. It means so much to me that so many of you want to continue to follow me on my journey. I am thankful for each of you. And all you lurkers...you need to comment more often. :)

I get to see S on Sunday and that makes me very happy. Last weekend was kind of spoiled because of the whole car wreck, so it will be nice to be able to just spend time with her without so many worries and concerns.

Happy Friday everyone.